Whoops, I did it again!

Expectations that created the prefect storm...

Honoring your body, mind, & spirit means not pushing yourself harder than necessary to make it to an imaginary goal.

I haven’t posted a New Uncloaked Authenticity piece in the last two weeks, for three very important reasons. Not excuses.

First: This upcoming piece revealed hidden trauma that I wasn’t aware of and am now processing. I thought I’d fully healed from this story, but (as we all know) healing is a spiral. The deeper we go the more we uncover as we get to the root of what needs healed. That’s where it’s taken me…. *cringe*

Second: When processing big emotions, the body can and will release that energy in any way it can. Sometimes that means it comes out as sweat, tears, sore throats, running noses, arching muscles, fevers, vomit, etc. Weaking the body until it’s refilled with healing, love, and light. Normally, I’d drink a tea blend for deep healing recovering I created but forgot about it… whoops.

At the same time, my co-worker became sick then passed it to the entire store. *facepalm*

A perfect storm for me to get weaves of low-grade fever, sore throat, dry cough, and mucus. Whoo-ray

Third: Posting a weekly article is a goal I set for myself when I first started this project. I wanted it to be small quick piece but it’s unfolding as long writings woven with deeper understanding, new perspectives and healing for myself. So, a weekly post is becoming heaver goal to meet then I thought.

Yet, I’m the one that set the goal. Maybe influenced by other Substackers but still I created this goal. No one is breaking down my door demanding another post. SO, why am I stressing my mind, body and energy to come up with something great?!?!

Because I created unrealistic goal while conditioning has trained me to not deviate from the plan. Just grit your teeth and bear it…

BUT I’m choosing to honor myself, body, and energy by saying it out loud: I can’t keep up at this pace while trying to work on other projects.

SO, I’m re-evaluating how I’m shaping Uncloaked Authenticity. It may look like changing the amount per month, length of pieces or something I haven’t figured out yet. *haha

I’m also giving myself the permission to drop the high expectation I placed on myself. I’ll slowing down but that doesn’t mean I’ll disappear. (Mostly reminding myself about that.)

The mental doctor called, they say I must turn off my brain, drink water/tea, and a take nap.

The next few weeks look like balancing the necessary to-do with relaxing, recharging, and refilling.

Then, figuring out the balance between all my amazing projects. Including Earth is Calling (Messages from the Light) and authentic bantering personal life stories.

PLUS!!! I’m working on a manuscript that I started two years ago. I’m not sure if it’s a past life memory, channeled story, or just fiction BUT it’s based in ancient times around the spiritual initiation of Weavers (Queer Folks). The initiation wanders through the eight elemental realms with the magic that’s waiting to be found…

If you want to share some joy with me… a cup of tea always brings a smile to my face. - thank you!